Author Archive : Anne Hope

CAPTURING THE MAGIC

By Anne.Hope on August 21, 2011

2011 HOLT Medallion Winner!There is nothing more exciting than rekindling an old love affair. Nothing more potent than that agitated tingle in your chest, the liquid heat in your blood, the euphoric stimulation of both mind and senses.

No, I’m not talking about reconnecting with an old flame, though that’s the premise of my new print release, Broken Angels. I’m talking about my love affair with books. I’ve always been an avid reader, ready to give myself over to a story, to suspend disbelief and allow myself to be transported. I took the concept of escapism to new levels. In fact, you could say my love for books bordered on obsession.

But lately, I’ve been so focused on writing, I seem to have forgotten what attracted me to the written word in the first place. My mind is constantly filled with things like plotting, pacing, conflict and motivation, my thoughts consumed by the mechanics of writing as opposed to the sheer pleasure of it, and that has spilled into other areas of my life, including reading.

But just the other day, something amazing happened. 

I was at a bookstore, and I randomly picked a book from the shelf. The cover grabbed me, the concept sounded interesting, and I had some time to kill. I read the first line…and couldn’t stop. My internal editor shut off, and I was swept away. Needless to say, I bought that book and brought it home, anxious to see what happened next.

I read well into the night, stopping only long enough to get a few hours of sleep. When I woke up, all I could think about was getting back to the story. And I did. For hours upon hours. I kept telling myself I should put the book down. I had this blog to write. I should be entertaining my kids, plotting my next novel, working on my new novella.

But as guilty as I felt for this small indulgence, nothing short of an explosion could’ve pried that novel from my fingers. I was absorbed, enamoured, transported. When I finally read the last sentence, I felt a stab of disappointment. Not because the author had let me down, but because I wasn’t ready to part with the characters yet. That’s how real they’d become to me.

As the haze slowly lifted, after I’d checked on my kids to ensure they hadn’t set the house on fire while I’d been busy reading, the analytical side of my brain kicked in again, and I asked myself a question. Why did this book accomplish something so many others have failed to do? How do you define the magic, that moment when your own reality lifts and you’re firmly rooted in the world the author has created?

I still don’t have a definitive answer, but the one thing I kept coming back to was characterisation. Yes, an interesting high concept is what gets you to pick up a book, but it’s the characters that hold you. They’re the ones who pull you into their world, make you feel what they feel, compel you to fall in love with them. For that to happen, something about them has to speak to the deepest levels of your consciousness, and that’s different for every one of us. That’s why the magic I speak of is so elusive.

I may not have discovered the secret to superstardom, but I have rediscovered one thing: my passion for the written word. This experience reminded me why I became a writer. If I can touch one person the way that book touched me, if I can lift someone’s reality and replace it with the one I’ve created, then I’ve accomplished my goal. I’ve captured the magic. 

 

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Family. Our desire to have it. Our struggle to hold on to it. Every time I look at my kids, I realize that’s what inspired my new release, Broken Angels. The need to form connections, to be part of a whole greater than ourselves, to nurture and protect is embedded in us all. Whether we fulfill that need by looking after our aging parents, raising children or caring for a pet, we each seek to satisfy it in our own way.

In Broken Angels, the heroine’s desire for a family is both her undoing and her salvation. Abandoned by her father at a young age, deprived of siblings, she has always been driven to fill the emptiness inside her. When she married her childhood crush, Zach, she believed all her dreams of love and family would finally come true. But fate threw her a curve ball. Infertility crushed her spirit and ultimately destroyed her marriage.

Two years later, just as she resigns herself to the depressing fact that family isn’t in the cards for her, Zach’s sister is brutally murdered, naming Rebecca and Zach legal guardians of her three children. Suddenly, the man Rebecca loved with a passion that bordered on obsession is back in her life, and she has no idea where he fits anymore. Nor does she know what to do with the three broken-hearted children looking to her for comfort and guidance. Is she ready to open her heart to them…and to Zach? Will she risk it all for the one dream that has forever evaded her? And if she does, will fate snatch it away from her as it has time and time again?

Each and every day, we risk heartache by loving others. Pain is an inevitable part of life, as is loss. I’ll admit I’ve included some of my deepest fears in this book. Since I became a mother, danger has taken on new meaning for me. It’s a shadow, ever-present, lurking around every corner. I’ve cradled a feverish child in my arms all through the night, crying and worrying. I’ve experienced the chill in my blood and that sinking sensation in my abdomen when my four-year-old daughter decided to play hide-and-seek in the yard, refusing to come when I called her. Wherever I go, I scan the surroundings to ensure my children are safe, that no car will come careening around the corner, that no one is hiding and watching, waiting to take them from me. But a threat can take any form, even that of a loved one, a mentor, a friend.

Broken Angels is a story of devotion and courage, overshadowed by the evil that lurks not only in the world around us, but in the human heart. If it has a message, it’s that love is more powerful than loss, that passion can survive the deepest heartache, and that family can blossom in the darkest of circumstances.

Broken Angels is now available! Read a review at Literary Nymphs and Joyfully Reviewed.

To learn more, visit www.annehope.com.

Excerpt:

The harbor shivered, and from its depths a figure sprang. She walked toward him, bathed in starlight, her body glistening, her hair streaming wet and wild down her back.

Zach’s next breath snagged in his throat.

A siren, he thought. A mythical creature rising from the sea to seduce him.

His lungs felt crushed, deprived of air. The walls of his throat narrowed as an electrical charge pulsed across his nerve endings.

Then he realized the siren was Becca. She’d gone for an evening swim. She loved swimming at night because the water was always warmer then. Shadows played along her curves, making her hips rounder, her stomach flatter, her breasts fuller. Her hair was a deep bronze, her skin a translucent ivory in the pale light of the moon.

His body instantly responded to the sight of her, hardening, aching, until he couldn’t remember why he’d vowed to keep his hands off her. None of it seemed to matter anymore.

She grabbed a towel from the porch railing and swathed it around her figure, and it took all of his self-control to bite back the protest that scratched at his throat.

“I was wondering where you disappeared to,” he muttered instead. His voice sounded gruff.

“After I tucked Noah and Kristen in, I decided to go for a swim. You were busy with Will, and I can always use the exercise.” She lowered her body next to his, smelling of the sun and the sea. Water dripped from her hair. Rivulets trickled over her shoulders and slid down her arms.

Unable to stop himself, he captured one of the drops with the back of his index finger. It was cool against her warm skin, silky. Their gazes locked, and awareness sizzled between them.

“Did Will go to sleep okay?” Her question pierced the cloud of lust enveloping him.

“Yeah.” He let his hand fall away before he was tempted to explore more of her. “He was exhausted after all that crying.”

“Not to mention all that fun in the sun.” A hazy smile ghosted across her lips. “We had a pretty full day. The kids were really excited, weren’t they?” The tenderness on her face shook him. It was the same look Lindsay always used to get whenever she spoke of the kids.

He eyed her steadily. An image of her playing in the waves with the pack earlier today flashed through his mind. “You’re really something with them.” He couldn’t suppress the note of wonder in his voice. “I never expected it.”

She gave a self-deprecating chuckle. “Half the time—correction, most of the time—I feel like I’m in way over my head.” Bolt ambled onto the porch to sit beside her, and she stroked him absently. Zach’s gaze was drawn to the gentle rhythm of her fingers as she threaded them through the dog’s lustrous coat. He remembered how those hands had felt on his body when she’d massaged him last night, the way they’d twined in his hair and chased the tension from his limbs.

“But I understand them. Understand how they feel,” she added, oblivious to the dangerous path his thoughts were taking. “I get Noah’s anger, Kristen’s totally delusional hope, Will’s tantrums.”

Zach made a sound that was half laugh, half snort. “At least one of us does.”

“You’re being too hard on yourself as usual. You’re great with them. I can see how much they look up to you.”

“That’s because I’m tall.”

Her heartfelt laughter filled the night. God, he’d missed hearing her laugh. The sound of it made a strange energy pulsate in his pores and burrow deep within the marrow of his bones. It took all his self-control not to reach out and touch her again. Instead, he clasped his hands together and let them hang between his knees.

“Can you answer a question for me?” He stared at his joined fingers, unable to look her in the eyes for fear of what he would see there.

“Sure.”

“When I suggested adoption, why did you refuse? I thought maybe you believed you couldn’t love a child that wasn’t biologically ours. But now that I see you with these kids I can’t help but wonder—”

“You thought I couldn’t love a child I didn’t give birth to?” She sounded offended.

He ventured a glance in her direction. Even in the dark he couldn’t miss the indignation that flamed in her cheeks.

“I didn’t know what to think,” he answered honestly. “You were so set against it.”

“Because I was angry. Because if I couldn’t have what I wanted, then I wanted nothing at all. It was the injustice of it, the unfairness. Why should I be deprived the joy of feeling my child grow inside me when it came so naturally to everyone else? Adoption felt like acceptance, like throwing in the towel.”

“Would that have been so bad?”

“At the time, yes.”

“And now?”

She hesitated. The light breeze lifted her wet curls from her shoulders, sent them rioting around her face. “It doesn’t really matter anymore,” she whispered. “The choice is no longer mine to make.” He barely heard her past the whoosh of the waves.

“That sounds oddly like acceptance.”

“Maybe it is. Even I have to give up sometime.” Her inflection held a hint of amusement, but he wasn’t buying the flippancy.

“Is that what this feels like to you, giving up?”

She was quiet for a long time. The waxing moon haloed her head and made her eyes sparkle like liquid gold.

“No,” she answered with more conviction than he’d expected. “It feels like family.”

Vulnerability sparkled in her eyes, more potent than her glistening skin, her clingy swimsuit, the small towel wrapped around her breasts and hips. Zach lost the battle and extended his hand to cup her face. Her skin was soft, an odd blend of velvet and satin. It tickled his palm as a strange current traveled up his arm and thrummed along his flesh.

He never should have allowed himself to touch her. Now the need to kiss her blinded him. It was a physical ache, sharp and insistent. She turned her cheek into his palm, moved closer…

Where Dreams are Made

By Anne.Hope on October 28, 2008


Where Dreams are Made is now available! If you want a deeply emotional read with loads of sexual tension, suspense, and a sexy hero who will make you want to believe in Santa all over again, this is the book for you.

He’s a reclusive toymaker trying to atone for his sins. She’s a hunted woman, secretly hired to mend his heart. One magical Christmas, these two lonely people learn that love can heal the deepest scars, but the price may be their lives.

My goal when writing this story was to create characters that went against stereotype. Jenny has suffered from violence, abuse and an endless streak of bad luck, yet she’s not hard or jaded. There’s a warmth and innocence about her, an insecurity that makes her refreshingly human and all the more courageous. It is these very traits that compel Daniel’s grandfather to secretly hire her to impersonate his grandson’s assistant, hoping to save him from a life of self-imposed isolation.

Daniel, too, is not your typical alpha male. He’s strong, guarded, but there’s a gentleness in him that makes him precisely the man Jenny needs.

In each other, Jenny and Daniel find acceptance, love, and the strength to heal. But the secret she conceals and the man who is determined to own her threaten to tear them apart. When Jenny’s past invades the sanctuary she’s found, putting their lives in danger, she must lie to Daniel yet again to protect him. With courage she never knew she possessed, she confronts her greatest fear in the name of love. Will Daniel be able to do the same, finding forgiveness in his heart, even if it means forgiving himself?

I am very excited to finally be able to share this story with you and hope it will touch your heart and haunt your dreams the way it has mine.

Here’s an excerpt to whet your appetite!

“It looks like a painting.” Jenny gazed at the lighthouse perched on a shelf of ultramarine blue and burnt umber rocks, as they circled San Juan heading for the harbor.

“That’s Lime Kiln Lighthouse.”

Kelp and driftwood floated at the foot of the bluff, framing the shoreline. The cool salt water breeze kissed her face, left a salty taste on her lips. “It’s so beautiful, and so lonely.” The tall, solitary structure, set against gray mountains and encompassed by blue sky and water, reminded her of Daniel—solid, quiet, admired from a distance. How sad that something so enthralling should be so isolated.

“We’ll reach Friday Harbor soon.” Daniel steered the boat, his back turned to her, his expression vacant.

She was happy he’d let her come with him, even if he had only invited her because he’d felt sorry for her. What an enigma he was. Yesterday when they’d danced she’d sensed a connection between them. There was nothing indifferent about the way he’d held her, the way his fingers had stroked her back, the way his hand had clasped hers. But today miles separated them. She might as well have been alone on this boat.

She absorbed the sight of him. His features seemed chiseled in stone. She longed for the gentleness of the man who’d comforted her late at night when the nightmares had risen to ensnare her, the man who’d helped her decorate a Christmas tree and who’d held her in his arms so tight she hadn’t known where her heartbeat ended and his began.

“Do you come here often?” she asked above the deafening whoosh of the waves.

“Once a week,” he replied.

A gust of wind whipped his hair, raising it from his face. Briefly, she caught a glimpse of the scars he went to great lengths to conceal. White grooves dug into his flesh, crisscrossing his cheek. Her fingers itched to trace them, to heal them with the loving care of a tender touch. But she couldn’t. Daniel didn’t want her looking at him, let alone touching him.

As they rounded the island they drew nearer to Friday Harbor, where a line of fishing boats and pleasure yachts floated patiently. Seagulls screeched overhead, flapping their wings as they spiraled above the bustling port. A brilliant procession of boats, decorated in shimmering Christmas lights chugged around the harbor. Jenny leaned over the bow, impressed by the sight.

Her face must have reflected her enchantment, for Daniel said, “It’s the annual Parade of Lights.”

The whole town—what she could see of it—twinkled with a rainbow of Christmas lights. “It must look incredible at night.” She felt as if she’d stepped into one of those gleaming villages people placed under their Christmas trees.

“I don’t know. I’ve never seen it.”

They finally managed to dock. Daniel secured his boat, and Jenny followed him to an old red brick building facing the waterfront. A short, plump man with round glasses and prominent cheeks came to greet them.

“Daniel, I was starting to worry. You’re late.” The man slapped him amicably on the arm. “In the four years we’ve worked together you’ve been like clockwork. I can usually time your arrival to the minute.”

“Sorry, Saul. We got stalled by the parade.”

“Ah, they hit the water earlier in the day this year.” Saul’s gaze settled on Jenny. Surprise spread across his round face. “You two came together?”

Daniel’s stoical expression faltered. “This is Jenny, my assistant.”

“Is that what they’re calling ’em these days?” Saul cackled at his own remark, winking at Daniel.

Heat suffused Jenny’s cheeks, perspiration pearling in her joints. This Saul had taken one look at her and known what she was. Not an assistant, but a hired companion.

He can’t know, she reassured herself. Only she and Sam Leland were aware of their deal. Guilt sank like a bucket of rocks to settle at the pit of her stomach.

“The shipment’s in my boat. Can you send a couple of guys to help me unload?”

Thank God Daniel had steered the conversation away from her. Even though the pragmatic side of her brain told her she was overreacting, her crushing conscience made her foolishly paranoid.

“Sure, I’ll send them right out.” Saul smiled at Jenny. “You come back again soon.”

“That’s up to Daniel.” Stealing a glimpse of him, she noted the firm clasp of his hands, the darkness cloaking his eyes. He had no intention of bringing her back, unless it was to escort her to the ferry that would carry her out of his life.

Jenny had never much believed in prophecies, but that moment she had a vision. She saw herself standing on the deck of an open ferry, staring at the fading silhouette of a dark-haired man, feeling her heart break with each new wave that crashed against the hull as she floated further and further away. Floated back to Prospect Valley, to Leo, to self-effacement. If she went back there, the glitter inside her that made her the person she was would dim and die. She’d become a robot wearing human flesh, a programmed machine, with all emotion banned from her life.

Perhaps she would have been able to live that way before, but not now. Not after tasting peace, security. Not after savoring the warmth of Daniel’s kindness. She’d never thought a man’s presence could be so comforting. Before Daniel, Jenny had believed men inspired only fear, submission. But Daniel made her feel protected, cared for. He gave her hope, and she hadn’t had that in a very long time.

As they stepped outside, she eyed the numerous restaurants and cafés dotting the waterfront, all outfitted with glimmering lights. Although the small town wasn’t crowded, the sight of bikers and pedestrians filling the quaint streets was a welcome change from Daniel’s secluded cottage. “Can we stay and walk around town?”

“No.” Daniel’s reply was curt and dry, almost frantic. He seemed out of his element here amidst society—tense, uneasy. “We have a deadline to meet.”

Jenny understood. She caught the real reason in the way he averted his eyes. He wore the unworthiness he felt the same way he wore his scars. As much as he tried to conceal it, it was a part of him and it refused to stay hidden.

In a few minutes they’d boarded his boat and pulled away from the dock, Daniel skillfully bypassing the parade. Jenny leaned back against the railing, watching him. He seemed anxious to get away, eager to drift on to the wide, flowing ocean.

“Why are you staring at me?” He hadn’t as much as slanted a glance her way and yet he’d sensed her gaze.

“Just wondering why you feel so uncomfortable around people.”

He looked at her then, taken aback. “I don’t. I told you we have work to do.”

She approached him, placing her hand on his shoulder. “You don’t have to pretend with me. I understand how you feel. I just don’t understand why.”

He stared at the rippling water, his expression unreadable. “Please don’t touch me.” His voice was gruff, strained.

“Why not? Don’t you like being touched?” Boldly, she ran the back of her index finger across his right cheek. He jerked away as if she’d grazed him with a burning flame.

Compassion squeezed her heart. “What happened to you, Daniel?”

A light drizzle began to fall, but the sun continued to shine. Up ahead on the distant horizon a rainbow glowed. She’d never seen anything so magnificent—a prism of sparkling color diving into the boiling waves.

“Maybe you should go below deck.”

She shook her head. “No, I don’t mind the rain. I don’t get to see a view like this everyday. Isn’t it incredible? How two total opposites can form something so breathtaking?”

Daniel didn’t reply. He just continued staring blankly ahead. Moving to his left, she did something terribly brazen. She touched the hair that veiled his cheek, brushing it aside. In an instant his fingers clenched hers. “What the hell are you doing?” Panic flared in his voice.

“I just—I wanted to see your face.”

Realizing how tightly he clasped her hand, he loosened his grip, releasing her. “Don’t ever do that again.” His clipped, non-negotiable tone delivered the message loud and clear.

In the past, Jenny would have backed off, retreated into silence, but not now. “Why not? What are you so afraid of?” she asked. Then, unable to stop herself, she added, “You’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever met.”

Her words touched him; she could tell. His taciturn expression vanished, and for a brief instant before doubt set in, she sensed he almost believed her. “Beautiful? Have you looked at me?”

“More than you know.”

Something blazed in his eyes that made her gut clench and heat stir in her belly. To her delighted surprise, he raised his hand, tenderly cupping her face.

He was going to kiss her.

The ground beneath her feet moved at the thought. Or maybe it was just the boat hopping along the waves, but right now she didn’t want to think about that. She just wanted to think about the way his thumb trailed up her cheek to settle at the corner of her mouth, stroking it. Something deep and primitive told her Daniel’s kiss would be as magical as everything else about him. She closed her eyes, leaned into his wide, rough palm…

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