You know the list. Those five or ten people whom, if given the opportunity, you could “cheat” on your significant other with without blame. It’s a harmless list. I mean, who is really going to get a chance to sleep with Hugh Jackman except Mrs. Hugh Jackman (the lucky duck)? But still we make one, to fuel our fantasies and make anything seem possible.
I have a different kind of list. A list of men (and women, actually) about whom I can fantasize, who I can torture, and even redeem. They’re my placeholders.
When I read a story, I always have to have pictures of the characters in my head. These are based on the author’s description, of course, but words can only get you so far. As the character reveals him or herself to me throughout the text, I get a feeling for who that person really is. The crinkle around the eyes with a smile, the tilt of a head or an oft-used gesture. By the end of the story, I have a complete picture of what the character should look like. (This is one of the reasons I don’t like faces on book covers, because it tells me what I’m supposed to “see” and I’d rather come up with myself. But that’s a psychosis we’ll touch on another day.)
For whatever reason, as an author, I have to create that picture first. Before I write a page or story or that first line of dialogue, I need a picture of the characters in my head. I’m hardly unique in this. A lot of authors do it. These pictures are called “placeholders”, and before the invention of google, they came out of magazines. Sometimes even the author’s imagination. Me? I’m not that imaginative. I need photos.
When a character comes into my head, they generally wear the face of a favorite actor. Very rarely do the characters maintain the same mannerisms and gestures they start with, but I need that starting point to work from. Then I alter him or her to suit the character.
Not to color the pictures in your head, but let me share a few examples. Maggie from Let’s Dish is actually based on Robyn Lively from Chicago Hope fame, and Kevin is based on Scott Bakula. For the book I’m working on now, I needed a
handsome yet arrogant protagonist, and found the perfect picture of Jason Priestley. The photo carries the perfect attitude, though I’ve never seen the actor play a character like the one I have in mind. Doesn’t matter. I just need a starting spot. Somewhere to jump off and create the nuances of my characters.
So how about you? Do you have a list? How about a list of placeholders?
Have you ever been haunted? Have you ever wanted to be? That’s the problem Brin Maxwell has, and is finding out that having her late husband back in her life isn’t all she thought it would be, especially just when she’s ready to move on and learn to love again. 

